It makes me so mad how it feels like life is flying by I mean if I live to be 80 I have already almost lived a quarter of my life, I mean in two sort years I will be 20 and what have I done? Nothing. Thats right, nothing. I have nothing to show for that quarter of my life. I see people my age and they all look like they know what they are doing and know what they want out of life but when I look at myself I have no idea what I am going to do with myself after high school, I have not applied to any college, I can’t work in the USA, I don’t have the ACT score to go to any university I would have liked to go to back home. It just feels like there is so much and I can’t even say something like “I have a sorta close to an idea of what I am wanting to do for the next four years of my life and after that.” I fucking hate all of this.